February 5 2020
November 6 2019
You
You told me that you loved me
You told me that I will be okay
You told me that I could trust you…
But you never loved me, I was just one of your many games
I’m not okay because I mistakenly fell for your lies
I thought I could trust you.. But you broke me and now I trust no-one.
It’s so difficult trying to put you in the back of my mind.
You hurt me and you know you did
Please, no more lies, look in my eyes, tell me why you had to waste my time.
You
Were my everything
You
Were my first priority
You
Obviously didn’t feel the same
You had me wrapped around your finger,
making me want to do anything and everything for you
I was your last priority and for some reason I thought that was ok.
I wasn’t your everything.
I was your anything. The thing you could so easily push aside.
Now I realize
You, were the mistake, I shouldn’t have made the blame mine.
Unlike you, I did everything right.
Today, I am stronger. I will carry on and be a fighter.
You were a lesson I will never forget.
Now, is my time.
Thanks to You.
You told me that you loved me
You told me that I will be okay
You told me that I could trust you…
But you never loved me, I was just one of your many games
I’m not okay because I mistakenly fell for your lies
I thought I could trust you.. But you broke me and now I trust no-one.
It’s so difficult trying to put you in the back of my mind.
You hurt me and you know you did
Please, no more lies, look in my eyes, tell me why you had to waste my time.
You
Were my everything
You
Were my first priority
You
Obviously didn’t feel the same
You had me wrapped around your finger,
making me want to do anything and everything for you
I was your last priority and for some reason I thought that was ok.
I wasn’t your everything.
I was your anything. The thing you could so easily push aside.
Now I realize
You, were the mistake, I shouldn’t have made the blame mine.
Unlike you, I did everything right.
Today, I am stronger. I will carry on and be a fighter.
You were a lesson I will never forget.
Now, is my time.
Thanks to You.
The Worst Feeling
When you feel like you want to cry; in this case it’s the silent kind.
There’s a lump in your throat and you can’t escape the choking hold.
What you wish was a bullet, the thoughts are too engraved in your mind
Cant feel safe so all you wanna do is hide.
It’s the Worst Feeling;
When it’s like nobody understands you or your pain
Your shadows haunt you and all you do is watch the rain
Like tears they fall down the window never leaving a stain.
Being unheard, or hushed away; Feeling knocked down, pushed aside, told to die
It’s the Worst feeling;
When people tell you that you are loved and you know its a lie
When your told to hold on a little longer but the rope is breaking, count it as cutting ties
nobody sees the soul crushing demons in your eyes.
When you care about those more than yourself and by this point you dont care, your scared, no clue of what you might do, count yourself as terrified.
Now you’re drowning on what seems like an ocean of despair
Washing over you like an unbeatable riptide
This is never what you wanted for your own life.
Gasping for a new perspective, you feel jealous of those with no problems,
breathing air without a care.
When people ask you if your okay, you feel like your being testified, then you claim “I’m Fine”
It’s The Worst Feeling;
When people claim while they look at you that you’re wanted
You know that they’re lying to your face to keep another suicidal girl quiet.
And others have told you that you are not and never will be. Youve come to a conclusion that this now is your reality.
You believe it yourself and call them the “real ones” and the others “liars”
Meanwhile now you want to just give up, because your tired;
Then out of the silence you can hear your heart shatter.
Rhythms don’t sound the same, It’s like everybody is tone deaf and cant hear your screams
They’re focused on other things. Your simply uninterested in what had once seemed interesting.
Unfixabley broken and totally ashamed; It’s The Worst Feeling.. When it seems like everything you feel you have to keep on the down low and go through life solo
Have your emotions not for anyone else rather for your own keeps.
Your hugging your knees because nobody else gives you the love that you desperately need
As your voice cracks, you give life one more try
But it’s the worst feeling
When you ask for help and nobody is listening
Now your tears start rolling down your face because you cant decide
Whether to keep going after that try or stop the fight.
Silence fills the rooms and darkness covers the skies. Sad to most, others will deny
Newspapers now reads of a recent suicide.
“Hard Liquor”-- instrumental (G-Eazy)
There’s a lump in your throat and you can’t escape the choking hold.
What you wish was a bullet, the thoughts are too engraved in your mind
Cant feel safe so all you wanna do is hide.
It’s the Worst Feeling;
When it’s like nobody understands you or your pain
Your shadows haunt you and all you do is watch the rain
Like tears they fall down the window never leaving a stain.
Being unheard, or hushed away; Feeling knocked down, pushed aside, told to die
It’s the Worst feeling;
When people tell you that you are loved and you know its a lie
When your told to hold on a little longer but the rope is breaking, count it as cutting ties
nobody sees the soul crushing demons in your eyes.
When you care about those more than yourself and by this point you dont care, your scared, no clue of what you might do, count yourself as terrified.
Now you’re drowning on what seems like an ocean of despair
Washing over you like an unbeatable riptide
This is never what you wanted for your own life.
Gasping for a new perspective, you feel jealous of those with no problems,
breathing air without a care.
When people ask you if your okay, you feel like your being testified, then you claim “I’m Fine”
It’s The Worst Feeling;
When people claim while they look at you that you’re wanted
You know that they’re lying to your face to keep another suicidal girl quiet.
And others have told you that you are not and never will be. Youve come to a conclusion that this now is your reality.
You believe it yourself and call them the “real ones” and the others “liars”
Meanwhile now you want to just give up, because your tired;
Then out of the silence you can hear your heart shatter.
Rhythms don’t sound the same, It’s like everybody is tone deaf and cant hear your screams
They’re focused on other things. Your simply uninterested in what had once seemed interesting.
Unfixabley broken and totally ashamed; It’s The Worst Feeling.. When it seems like everything you feel you have to keep on the down low and go through life solo
Have your emotions not for anyone else rather for your own keeps.
Your hugging your knees because nobody else gives you the love that you desperately need
As your voice cracks, you give life one more try
But it’s the worst feeling
When you ask for help and nobody is listening
Now your tears start rolling down your face because you cant decide
Whether to keep going after that try or stop the fight.
Silence fills the rooms and darkness covers the skies. Sad to most, others will deny
Newspapers now reads of a recent suicide.
“Hard Liquor”-- instrumental (G-Eazy)
She Cried
She cried, over and over again
She cried because she knew she wasn’t loved by him
She cried. Fell to her knees as if all her strength was non existent, weakened within.
So she cried.
She tried but she knew she would never be like them
She fights, every single day. Moments that would pass by too quickly
Never given a chance to escape reality. She tries, but every time her emotions
Try to be hidden she can't help how she feels.
So she cried.
She’s left feeling alone. She'll fright, to speak up, you can hear the tremble in her tone.
Thousands of different eyes, many people around her, but that doesn’t change the lonely in her mind.
Simply just faint shadows, all pretending to be happy all at once, turning to a practical blur.
So she cried.
She cried because she knew she wasn’t loved by him
She cried. Fell to her knees as if all her strength was non existent, weakened within.
So she cried.
She tried but she knew she would never be like them
She fights, every single day. Moments that would pass by too quickly
Never given a chance to escape reality. She tries, but every time her emotions
Try to be hidden she can't help how she feels.
So she cried.
She’s left feeling alone. She'll fright, to speak up, you can hear the tremble in her tone.
Thousands of different eyes, many people around her, but that doesn’t change the lonely in her mind.
Simply just faint shadows, all pretending to be happy all at once, turning to a practical blur.
So she cried.